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Your side of the bed

I never knew what I had until it was lost and now everyone is paying the cost I let win, those demons in my head I miss seeing you on your side of the bed It's so lonely without you here losing you forever is my greatest fear I'm fighting those demons in my head It's still your side of the bed I just want to be a good man I'm going to do everything that I can I'm kicking out those demons in my head It will always be, your side of the bed. - Scott

Intro

 I'm not really doing this Blog for the sake of others; I'm doing it for myself. I am sitting here at my computer, having been crying most of the morning. In 2007 I married a wonderful woman. While the first years were great the last 6-7 have been trying and the last 8 months have been the worst of my life. At the time I was feeling stagnant, a feeling I did not like. I felt like I wanted to improve the family by eating healthier and treating our children with more compassion. I thought that this would spur a lot of growth and that we would become one of those families that people looked up to and admired. Then 8 months ago I made the decision to ask for a separation. I was angry that my wife didn't want to make the changes that I did and that it must mean she didn't love me very much. Never did I try and understand her more, how she thought and felt things. I quickly hopped back into the dating scene, trying to find the one that would improve with me. I met a girl who ...